My Favourite Photo…
Posted by leah on December 18th, 2011 filed in Emma, Josh, Ted's AdventuresComment now »
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Ted’s Hospital Adventure to Meet Josh’s Little Sister Emma!
Posted by leah on October 22nd, 2011 filed in Emma, Josh, Ted's AdventuresComment now »
The gorgeous Emma Joy is here! Born 12th Oct! And Ted was there for the hospital stay! The most precious bear of the lot!
We are so delighted to have Emma here safe and sound!
It is hard not to long for Joshie to be here too to meet her and be a big brother to her – showing her the world he knows. She has his lips 
But he is in God’s care… there is no better place, and we will love and delight in Emma for as long as we get to hold her this side of heaven.
The Gorgeous Emma – 30 Weeks Old!
Posted by leah on August 21st, 2011 filed in UncategorizedComment now »
Aches and Pain
Posted by leah on August 21st, 2011 filed in Emma, JoshComment now »
Over this beautiful pregnancy with Emma…. it’s hard not to ache and long for Joshie too.
It’s hard not to ache…
- when you have to tell medical professionals again your journey with Josh, so they are vigilant and compassionate. I wish it was not the story I had to tell. It can be quite emotional and draining over and over.
- when they are watching Emma so closely and you hear of simple test they can do to see if she is healthy…. why didn’t they just do them for Josh too.
- when the government census forces a mum to put that she has no children, just because he wasn’t breathing when he arrived. To ask a mum to deny her children at all let alone formally feels unbelievable hurtful.
- when you sit in ante natal classes, learning about the birthing process, finally understanding what was going on in Joshies birth.
- when you plan and hope for Emma’s future but still have plans if she was to die too.
It will be hard not to ache when Emma is here, safe and sound, and her brother is not here too to meet her.
Don’t get me wrong, I long for and look forward to Emma’s arrival. I can’t wait! I love that this pregnancy is so different. But it doesn’t change the fact that I miss Josh too. No one can replace him. Emma does not ‘fix’ my sadness and longing like some would believe but she does increase my joy and understanding and experience of love!
Praise be to God for both my chickens!
Spring Is Almost Here…
Posted by leah on August 20th, 2011 filed in Josh, Ted's AdventuresComment now »
I love this time of year when the green grassy hill is transformed into daffodil heaven and the trees flowers are beginning to flower.
A beautiful day remembering a beautiful boy!
Ted Braves Blustering Wind!
Posted by leah on July 6th, 2011 filed in Ted's AdventuresComment now »
We treked up the mountain on a beautiful sunny day…… wait…. a little bit of wind will be ok?….. Nope we braved 80-100k winds! It made feeding the fish a little bit tricky!
On the way we dropped off some Tulips to Ethan’s spot (he is always loved and remembered) to smile as we see the wind spinning the windmill round and round!
We decided to sit in the cafe, inside, in the sun to eat lunch, sitting under Josh’s tree was not an option! I am so impressed it is still standing.
Ted was keen to take his pics today with the early Tulips out in memory of Ethan!
I turned around for 1 moment and Ted is sent spinning down the hill by a huge gust of wind! Watch out!
We made our way to the bottom hut to eat chocolate and get out of the wind and then scored a lift with the bus back up to the top!
It is always a beautiful, different experience each visit to the garden.
I arrive home to Josh’s windmill spinning away! Two little boys so loved and so remembered…. I just wish they were here to hug.
Kinds Of Blue
Posted by leah on June 17th, 2011 filed in GeneralComment now »
A beautiful reflection on depression through the use of comics.
Ted’s Silly Faces!
Posted by leah on June 3rd, 2011 filed in Josh, Ted's AdventuresComment now »
Our trip up the mountain for Josh’s 4th birthday was a lovely one. The sun shone in between the clouds as we looked through our gorgeous Josh’s pics and blubbered, prayed and remembered.
Such joy and sadness.
The cakes this year were silly faces. Delicious to all young and young at heart! Some people take flowers we bake cakes and take pics!
Happy birthday Josh! So very loved and very missed!
Happy 4th Birthday Josh
Posted by leah on June 1st, 2011 filed in JoshComment now »
Dear Joshie,
Happy Birthday little boy! We love you and miss you so very very much. My heart is filled with thankfulness that our great God holds you in his arms everyday and I long and ache for the day when I get to see and hold you once again!
God’s word have encouraged me so much year esp. Isaiah 40. As I miss you, my gorgeous boy and struggle to keep moving I sing/pray these words based on this passage…
So I lift my eyes to the heavens
To the one who calls the stars our 1 by 1
Because of your great power, strength and might
It’s you who holds my life, please hold my life
And I lift my eyes to the heavens
To the one who is creator of all things
Everlasting God, who never grows faint
It’s you who hold my life, please hold my life.
Give me wings, to soar up high
The strength to run and hold on tight
Renew my strength my love my joy
As I hope in you, my hope is in you!
A truly beautiful song that has encourage me greatly this year by Addison Road:
This Little Light of Mine – Addison Road
And a beautiful rose grown for you by a lovely friend.
Today I bake – a cake you will never eat – but it is all I can do as a mum today. But Ted will join Tim and I tomorrow to be still, love, laugh, cry, reflect, pray and remember your amazing little life and how it has changed ours for the better! I smile everytime your little sister kicks as it reminds me so much of the time of joy I had with you!
You are so very loved!
Love Mum